Ack

I am feeling a little out of sorts today. For some reason I have had a headache for about five days that will not go away unless I take Ibuprofen and it is annoying me. I was alone in the bar today and it got really stressful. A group of ten came and sat down. They got beer, but they also all ate, then wanted the check split eight ways. I am new on the computer there so I really messed it up. It all got fixed but it was super stressful.

I also am just irritable for no reason. I feel really tense and annoyed at everything. I am wondering if the diet has anything to do with it. I am not sure. I am down four pounds though so that is good.

I went through all of our disks and found all the pictures we have taken in the last few years. I am sad that I have always had the "hate getting my picture taken" attitude because there are so few of me. I wish I would have been better about it. I found one of me from about four or five years ago and I looked so young and thin, but it was far away so you could hardly see me anyway. Plus I had a weird look on my face, I think I'll post it above so you can see what I mean. I cropped it because Gina is there next to me and it is just an awful picture of her, so I am being nice.

Anyway, all is well here actually. Not sure why I am having a bad attitude but lucky Lilly and JJ have me to take it out on them for no reason. Ha!

Night bar shifts are hard

Hello! Last night I had a night bartending shift for the first time. The other girl was fairly new at it too. We figured it was fine because it was a Sunday night, no biggie.

Then it got busy. Wow, we were stressed. Everything was in chaos. Open wine everywhere. Dirty pint glasses stacked for miles. We were both covered in beer and sweat. But we managed and made good money. We had a lull in the busyness at one point and hugged and started laughing really hard, but yeah, then it got busy again. What a night!

Today I have the day off and I am going to attempt to get the computer room clean. It will be a job. It is stacked with old papers and books and just stuff. Something must be done.

I forgot a title and it was bothering me

Hello all. Lilly got up early this morning (rotten kid) so she has been playing on the Nintendo and I thought I'd write a blog, even though I really don't have much to write about. Again the picture is totally random and has nothing to do with the blog, I just think it is funny.

I have a call-in bar shift today so I will find out at 10:30 whether I work at 11:30. It is weird being scheduled during the day. Also it just seems wrong somehow to serve beer at noon. But some people just have lunch because either they like the bar or don't want to wait for a table. I half want to work, because it is a bar shift plus money is good, and half just want the day off for laziness reasons.

I started the "spark people" diet yesterday. It is that website that you record your calories on. Last time it yielded fast results, so we'll see how I do. Last night the kitchen had some extra food as they sometimes do and they put out a huge bowl of cajun fries and ranch, and some steak skewers are are really tasty, but I ignored them both. Well, I didn't ignore them, I more looked at them sadly and drank some water. I told someone at work that the problem with water is that there isn't enough sugar in it and he looked at me like I was crazy.

Yesterday I put a deposit down for table and chair rentals for the wedding. I also reserved table cloths (decided on ivory because white is kind of stark) and red napkins, so the tables will have some contrast. Now we have to deal with centerpieces. JJ is becoming more involved with planning so that has been nice. But really, thank God for Mom, because I really don't know what I am doing.

I have officially been at Sierra Nevada over a year now, so tomorrow I will get my first "beer buck." A beer buck (we get one every two weeks) is good for a free case of beer at the gift shop. Or three beer bucks is good for a keg. So that is how the wedding will have free beer. We can also choose to trade them in for "juice bucks," which is a free case of Knusten juice. After the wedding I may do that because I like juice more than beer, but don't tell JJ or Mandy because they might cry.

That's about all. I am going to go get Lilly ready for school and prepare myself for the possibility of having to work.

Success!

So I went to Napa yesterday and had a good day. Mom, Richard and I had a nice lunch, then Mom and I had the second fitting for the wedding dress. The seamstress shop also had veils and headpieces for sale, so Mom quickly found the perfect ones. Really, it took her less than five minutes and I couldn't be happier. They were also literally a fraction of the cost David's Bridal was trying to sell the stuff at and nicer. Much nicer.

I also now have beautiful jewelery to wear for the wedding because I got my graduation present of a gorgeous pearl necklace and matching earrings. So I am done with wedding wear! Ah!

We also got shoes from an angry bridal shop lady. Mom and I were scared for our lives, I tried to run out the door before we even got the receipt. I cannot adequately describe that experience in writing. But sufficed to say that shop has been there for seven years and by God we should have looked in the yellow pages, because Brunilda spends a lot of money for that ad and clearly we should have known that shop existed. Shame on us. Shame. It is also apparently bewildering, and downright infuriating that we do not know the brand of dress I got. I.... I'm sorry angry woman.... please don't hurt us. We just.... want shoes. Oh.... oh help.

Randomness

The picture has nothing to do with anything, I just thought it was funny.

Hello all. Well, tonight I had a call in at work and surprisingly did not get called in. It is nice because JJ has a show tonight so we did not have to get a babysitter. So Lilly and I are hanging out. She is eating ice cream and watching Sponge Bob so I thought I'd blog. I don't really have much to blog about, but oh well.

The lawn is looking nice since I worked on it. It is greener and new grass is growing where I seeded it. JJ cut down the bushes in the front and put in new bark, so it looking good. I'd go take a picture but I am feeling lazy.

A girl at work got a pedometer and discovered that on average we bussers walk 14 miles a shift. So it is undoubtedly my food choices and not lack of activity that has been causing my weight gain. I am frustrated because I hate dieting and I loathe the idea of a "lifestyle" change to healthy eating. I don't like healthy food, period. It doesn't taste good. But when I get in the right state of mind I don't mind doing it. Last time I got to the weight I am now I dieted for a little over two months and lost 23 pounds. It took almost two years to put it all back on. So all I have to do is eat better for a couple of months, then try and avoid eating the junk I do now, and I should be back to where I should be. It is almost summer though, and I am coming to the terrible conclusion that I cannot hide behind hoodies and jackets anymore. My "heavy time" jeans are getting tight and even my baggy t-shirts aren't fitting the way I want them to. Sigh. Well, I wasn't planning on writing a novel on weight, so sorry.

On a brighter subject, the wedding plans are going well. We are going to have the rehearsal dinner at an Italian place, it will most likely be a pasta bar. I got the invitations, and they are really nice, I am happy with them. On Monday I go for my second fitting for my dress, so that should be fun.

Well, my buddy Sean just showed up, we are going to beat Lilly up, I mean not beat Lilly up. Yeah.... :)

x = Fail!

Well, I passed the vocabulary part of the GRE, but the math is a different story. First of all, the test was done on a computer and I was not allowed to skip questions and go back to them. Since the test was timed it freaked me out to spend too much time on one problem.

Also, before the whole test they have you do a tutorial on HOW TO USE THE MOUSE. It taught you how to hold the mouse, how the little arrow moves with the mouse, and how the buttons work.

Seriously. They expect me to know geometry but not how to use a mouse. Something is really flawed here. They should have made it computer literacy instead of math and I would have been fine.

The good thing is the lady at the graduate department had already told me the GRE wasn't a big deal. She said they look a lot more at your GPA in the last 6o units you took, and teacher recommendations. I look good in both of those and my writing samples were good as well.

So, it should be fine anyway. The communications department really doesn't care how good at math I am. And I can always retake the stupid test, but I don't see the point since I already tried. I'll find out in about a month if I got in the program, so everyone keep your fingers crossed for me.

The GRE

Sorry I haven't been blogging the last few days, but I have been studying for the GRE. That is the exam everyone has to take to get into the Masters program. I take it tomorrow evening. The problem has been that there is math on it. There is algebra, which I haven't taken in 10 years, and wasn't good at it to begin with, and geometry, which I have never taken. Luckily they do provide study guides, so I have been learning and re-learning math. I also have a friend who is helping me out with her wide math knowledge.

The verbal part also looks hard because the vocabulary is a bit rough. But that is nothing compared to the math.

Stupid math. Anyway, writing this blog is what I am doing to take a break because my head hurts, but I can't keep taking breaks, so off I go to the world of geometry again.